2014's Jar of Happiness!

While perusing my Facebook feed earlier today, I saw that a friend had shared this photo. (It wasn't her's, and in truth I have no idea whose pic it is ... but it's kinda grand, so I'm sharing it on here too!)

I will be doing this myself this year, it's the kind of a New Years "Resolution" I can actually get behind (and feel confident in accomplishing - though I do have others I will also attempt to fulfill, but I digress...).  

2014's Jar of Happiness! 

How To Do It: It's Very Simple.

1. Find a jar.

2. Decorate with a pretty bow.

3. Place on bookshelf (or where ever you'd like).

4. Insert little pieces of paper - throughout the year - with notes of the "good" things that happen to you.

5. Then, on New Years Eve 2014 (yes, that's right ... December 31, 2014) - open jar, read notes ...

6. Feel happy!

2014's Jar of Happiness!!!

This.

Inspiration!

Just a bit of inspiration for you ... for me ... for all!!!

Stop. And think.

Did you ever stop to think ... and forget to start again? Hahaha...ok, ok, to the point:

I am often brought to a very humble - and rather terrifying - state of just how "insignificant" we all are in the big picture ... time ... space ... history ... the world ... the universe ... you get the idea, right?!

Food For Thought:

1. The 1600's happened, right? Fact. But, I was not alive when they happened, and I didn't know it, however that did not stop them from happening. People lived, loved, fought, drank, sang, made theatre, had babies and died ... and I was not there. 

Yup ... so how will I know anything of this earthly existence when I am gone?

2. Think about all of the people you pass on any given day - people you don't know, they're not your friends or family, they're not even co-workers, they are just people. People:  

• Walking down the street 
• Driving
• At a shopping mall
• In a store
• In an elevator 
• At the gym

You get the drift...

Now ponder the fact that their lives go on, even when you are not around ... yet you have no proof of that. They were in your life for one brief moment (or several) and then they're gone - but they're not actually gone. Woah!

*More food for thought coming to a blog near you ... soon.

UnRequited ...

I have got to stop.
I have got to stop waiting.
I have got to stop waiting for him.
I have got to stop waiting for him to ... to ... to wake up and see, Me.
I have got to stop waiting for him.
I have got to stop waiting.
I have got to stop.

I love him! This I know, concretely. Would "it" work out, I can not say for sure. 

Sometimes I want to be the reason.

Sometimes I want to scream:
See me.
Want me.
Need me.
Pick me.

If mountains were moveable I would move one for him.
I would walk through fire for him.
I would - and have - make a fool of myself for him.
I would move ... anywhere ... for him, to be with him.
I would ... but I've got to stop.

I have got to stop!

It's an odd sort of feeling really, to want - so badly - to make someone else's dreams come true ... and not have them feel the same way about you.

London Town.

Big Ben

The worst breakup I have ever had was with a city. No joke. When I realized that I was going to have to leave London, a year earlier than I had anticipated because the British Government changed the stipulation on Foreign students obtaining their work visa after commencement ... (not that leaving at any point would have made me happy) ... well, it quite literally broke my heart!

I can recall sitting on my bed - in the room I was renting - and bawling my eyes out. It was that gut wrenching, can barley catch your breath type of crying. So many tissues bit the dust over the course of the first evening ... and then some. I mean, every time I 'got it under control,' my brain wouldn't let it lie ... something would trigger the waterworks and I'd be bawling again.

I can't explain it ... living in London, it is the only place I've ever been - that wasn't my folks home, where I grew up - that felt like home. Truth. The moment I landed in London I felt like I was home.

Can cities be like people - when you meet someone and just know they belong in your life?!

Not sure why I'm blogging this right now ... nope, that's a total bloody lie, I know why ... but that's all I'm going to say about that for the moment.

I miss London ... !!!