Well, I did it. I walked all the way out on that limb and told him how I really felt. End result - a bit of pain, and the ability to truly move on. "Hashtag"YourLoss (even if it feels like mine).
Do you want to know the "funniest" part about doing this? His claim that he "never knew." All the texting, emails, snail mail etc...and he never knew...???!!! Like bloody hell he didn't know, what a ruddy lie. It's better to simply admit to knowing than to say "you never knew." Gah!
He also said I should take him off of the pedestal I've got him on - which:
a.) is not for him to say "where" I place him, and
b.) just because I love him does not mean I've got him on a pedestal, because in all honesty, I do not! I do not think he is perfect ... but that doesn't stop me from loving him.
Oiy!
At any rate, I finally went all the way and really told him...and he's now told me he does not feel that way about me, in those words ... they don't feel great, but at least I don't have to wonder any longer.
Unrequited love sucks.
I'd also like to mention that in the past month he's called me "kid" and "kiddo" more than once...and he's almost 6 years my junior...WTF?!
That is all.
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